As the kids are taking their nap I'm taking time to sit back and reflect - ....I think I spent too many years on my own with the ability to have things "just so" to have things stay cleaned up for more than a couple of hours...etc - in those days I was sad - because I didn't have anyone to share life with. And now I get aggrivated every day with all of the little things that pile up - that need to get done over and over and over because of little messes.
The fact is - I wouldn't change any of it. I love my kids, I love my husband, I love the process of keeping the house, and the garden...I even really like my job - ok mostly - The problem is that there is just not enough time to do it all well...to take my time with it and enjoy it in the moment as much as I'd like.
This year has been a year of settling in - to the house, to the marriage and being together all of the time, to the kids - now that Evan is more of a participant....
My goal for next year is to stop worrying about what can't get done - and to enjoy what can be done more. To be in love with my life as much as I love my life - so that I show it more to all of the people I love.
This year, I am thankful for:
My children they are bright active and fun...healthy sassy and LOUD! They make life exciting and wonderful!
MY husband -who is the best daddy I know, loves our family, works hard making our house a home we can be proud of, allows me time for myself and accepts me for who I am.
My parents - who helped us make it through the year. From staying with us when the 4 of us had a stomach virus to keeping the kids for several weekends and Shakespeare evenings so Clark and I could do things as a couple.
My spirit sisters - for being there and listening and understanding and sharing life's ups and downs.
Grammy, Jill, Leana, Donna, Kim and Lizyy for emergency childcare!!!
Leana & Clyde for MANY evenings of dominoes, tea and chocolates!
My job - that I got a new one with a decent boss and moved to the Morristown office.
Blaize - for all of the years of companionship and love and loyalty and mouse hunting.